Literary Narritive

Ever since I was a little girl my Mama always told " You should always love yourself before you love somebody else." I never really understood what she meant and always brushed it off when she told me. I finally understood what she was talking about the first time I got my heart broken. We were together for almost a year and a half And I thought everything was great. We were both stars on the basketball team and everybody thought we were the dream couple to be. He was there for me when I was in the hospital for a week and doctors didn't know what was going on and he was there for me when me and my mom had our big blowups and I thought we was going to be together forever. Until things got bad on his side of the family. He was always mad and never want to be around people, the way he performed on the court was different and the way he treated me was different. The way he talk to me, the way he hug me, the way you say my name had all Changed. He had changed. He was the love of my life at least I thought and when our relationship ended I thought the world came to an end. I let this break up change me. Before I was always happy I love to make people laugh and there was never a doll moment with me but after our break up is seem like everything about me faded away. My family and friends could see the changed but I just couldn't see it. My heartbreak had blinded me, it had blinded me from seeing how he was mistreating me it had blinded me from seeing the things he was doing and is it had blinded me from seeing things that I was doing to myself. One day After I was fed up with trying to fix the relationship and tired of the pain and tired of the crying I tried to take my life and ended up in the hospital for two days. It was a shock to my whole family. If I would've known what I know now I promise you I would've never been in that predicament. I finally understood when my mother was talking about. She wasn't just trying to talk my head off with some stupid little things about how she lived in the old days. She was trying to make me into a proud woman. And what I mean is she was trying to get in my head that no one can ever put you in a bad place if you didn't want to be there. She was trying to tell me that Love and myself will make me see how I am supposed to be treated and it will make me see that I will not put up with just anything. My heartbreak was a lesson that just needed to be taught. I am so happy that I have that woman in my life because she has been there for me through everything she showed me that I do not need anybody to be happy I could be happy by myself. I have learned so much from this woman and I'm grateful to have her.